I got home from work this morning at around 3am. But then when I woke up I got to talk to my best buddy Beffy. That was a fabulous way to start my day. And then I went and played at Blizzard Beach..unfortunately it wasn't super hot today and there was a breeze so it was actually a little chilly. Luckily it wasn't snowing. HA. And it was still super fun and in the 80's. I went to dinner with my 5 fabulous roommates and then had a late-night Walmart run. But the best part of my day was between the water park adventures and dinner.
I came home while my roomies went to Downtown Disney and Skyped with my buddy Zach-y.
I'm sure everyone reading this knows it but Zach and I have been besties since like 3rd grade. Actually we weren't besties then because boys were gross and I was mostly friends with his little sisters but our families have been way tight for a long time and once we got older and not quite so stupid we became better friends and somehow ended up in the same EFY session and later in the same BYU ward without planning either. Go figure. And it all got weird when I was Snow White and he was the prince..but hey that did make for a really good gift idea for his birthday. And he has the Snow White cup in his room and the book somewhere haha. Out of all of the best friends I've had that were guys, he's the only one that's stuck around. So I had this sad realization today: a good majority of my really close guy friends haven't stayed that way because of choices made by them to discontinue an amazing friendship for various reasons..and some have stayed acquaintances and some have been totally removed from any communication or contact, in some cases for very good reasons. Other situations have just become weird and ones with no trust or true desire to be friends..just kind of there. Broken promises, shallow motives, inconsiderate dishonesty, and desires of the natural man. But Zach's the only one who's really stayed close and while I do have to pry things out of him for stories and information he doesn't freely share like he should, that's just how he rolls and after this year it's gotten so much better and we've truly bonded. It kind of started with an email that started 6 years ago and was kind of finished, or at least put on hold, tonight. This past year was great and for once we actually knew what was really going on in each others' lives. Funny that we used to never ever discuss anything involving other girls or guys even though it didn't matter...? And while the middle of this year was a little rough in staying super tight and hanging out, the year ended well with several post-midnight walks and quite a few eye-rolls from me cuz the kid is a total dork and sometimes won't just talk. :P That's just how it went. But it was so fun. He still treats me like a little sister or ignores me when certain people are around, but I guess that's just how it goes. And I can deal with it--just roll my eyes, ignore him, and tease him mercilessly about it later. I'm sad he's not going to be here to bug and text and skype, but he's going to be an awesome missionary and I'll definitely see him when he gets back from Texas. I'll be graduated then. :)
I love my Zach-y. BFFs.
I've had a few more realizations lately.
1. I don't mind not dating. And now for the long explanation:
While i was at BYU I kind of hated when my roommates had a certain guy they liked or would always hang out with or were dating or whatever and really only cuz I miss it. It was nice having someone always there. But since getting to Florida, away from date-happy Utah, I've realized how much I really don't want to get married soon. I'm such a little kid who is so not ready to settle down anytime soon. It's not that I want to be single forever but I actually wouldn't mind getting through college without having seriously dated anyone. Now that might change when I get back to BYU and everyone's back to crazy dating and instant judgment of whether someone is marriage worthy..but Florida's been a good eye opener. Maybe it's just cuz there's no one I'm interested in here since most of them aren't what I'm looking for and I'm not interested in anyone in Utah either..but I'm actually good with staying out of the dating scene right now. Because I didn't have my laptop until yesterday I haven't been on facebook much lately and I've actually loved it. No offense to anyone, but I'd almost rather not know what's going on in many people's lives. That or I just don't really care. As much as I love people, some are just tied to too many things. And while I love having my computer back, I'm not as addicted to facebook as I was. Hopefully it stays that way. Anyway, random, but when I got back on facebook after being away for a while like 5 people were engaged!! Getting married scares me now. And boys in general have a lot of proving to do before I'll be convinced that they're worth it again. Who needs boys when you have 6 parks, sunny weather, and fireworks? I love fireworks.2. I love laptop keyboards that work. Not that it's a realization really cuz it's kind of obvious but I keep started to go for the mouse pad to click on something when, hey, I can use my keyboard. Because it works. It's a beautiful, beautiful thing.
3. I'm really good at separating people from events. It's been super convenient but now I just wish some situations would go away with the people that left. It would save on a lot of random stupid.
4. My family is a lot easier to miss when I'm on the other side of the country instead of 30 minutes away. I really didn't miss my family that much when I was at school because I saw them almost every week, sometimes more. But it made me sad when I tried to call my mom on mother's day and she didn't answer and no one answered on the home phone and I had to wait until my break the next night. :( Normally, no big deal. But I've realized how much I really do miss my family, it's just hard to miss something that's always there. I love my family. :) I'm very sad they won't be coming to visit me this summer..:( Stupid elections...Mike Lee for Senate :D
5. I want to be someone who gets to dress up for work. I watch my managers in their nice, classy suits and earpieces and yes, I want to be like them. I think that would be so much fun. Maybe not a manager at Disney but just a job that lets me dress up and make decisions and really make things happen.
6. I look awful in high-wasted pants. I have such long legs that pants that sit on my hips make me look so disproportionate. BUT...
7. I love my job. Even when a shift goes until 2am. Yesterday things got slow so I walked around giving little kids stickers and played pirates with little boys and called little girls princesses. I wanna be a princess when I grow up..I wanna be just like those little girls..still dreaming big and just being that princess..not caring how many jerks get in the way, how many obstacles they have to walk around, or who's judging. I wanna be a princess when I grow up.
9. I LOVE oranges. I used to hate them. But Florida has made me love them. I still don't like orange juice.
10. I love Florida. So much. I never want to go back to BYU. That may change seeing as I've only been gone for a few weeks but I absolutely love being away from the bubble and really being in the real world. While I'm still staying away from a lot of it, it's been so great. I got lucky again with amazing roommates--I didn't think it was possible to have great roommates two shots in a row. But I did and it's been fabulous. I was worried, about my job and housing and roommates and living in general, but now it's been great. It's so been what I've needed since I started college. A break, a separation, a distance, a new start without stupid people and, honestly, AF High. I do miss my family, and I do miss my awesome roommates that I had at BYU and can't wait to see them again. I do miss certain, select people from Utah and will be happy to see you again. Still. I love DisneyWorld with all my heart. So much fun. Amazing. Magical. Disney music every day at work.
I love it.
Outside my window: a reminder that I am no longer in Utah..and that
I'm totally loving it.
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